The night of my dads Birthday

we went out to celebrate my dads birthday but my mum didnt come. she didnt come the night when we went to celebrate my brothers birthday. i really hope she doesnt miss my birthday. i want to celebrate it with my whole family. not with my cousins or anything though.

My dads birthday

Yesterday was my dads birthday. i got him a mango cake but it didn't taste as nice because the mango was sour. he also got 3 cards from me that i made.

i have a secret crush on someone! SHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

I love food. i can never get it off my mind. I would eat everything...... well i guess most things. its something that always pops up into my mind.

I like to have my own personality and express it but i've only expressed half of it. i dont express my true feelings and secrets. that what pulls me behind. everyone seems to not like me as much. it really makes me mad that they hate me for no reason.

My mum

My mum currently has depression. Everyone i guess thinks oh yer as if it's that serious but you have no idea how serious it is. i can't be myself around her. i have to do everything as perfect as i can get it. do things right. just its hard to explain.

THIS IS WHERE ALL MY PROBLEMS ARE GOING TO BE WRITEN DOWN AND TO BE TOLD BY EVERYONE WHO READS MY BLOG.

problems

If i have problems i would write it all out. i wont tell people around me. i wont write it down. i would put it on this blog.

House athletics

On wednesday we had house athletics. My left foot was in pain and i didn't stretch before i ran so i'm still currently in pain. i did the 100m sprint, 200m run and long jump. i got 3rd out of 5 people in 100m, 2nd place out of 6 in 200m and 4th out of 6 in long jump. 

Stomach pains.

I am currently in pain right now. I hate stomach aches. There the worsted things ever. They stop me from doing a lot of things.

How im going

These days I'm not really going on so well. its time where I'm about to lose a friend. every friendship i have goes for 1 year. I have a feeling Ellie and I are gonna not be best friends anymore. I really do hope its just all a dream because i really don't want that day to come. 

pissed of with everything today.

today we had maths but we went into the computer labs. Ellie was kind of back with Lizzy and she didn't listen to anything i said. at that point i felt a bit like a loner but i still had Katie. when we had R.E we waited for our teacher but as i was waiting Ramey wouldn't stop bragging about how good of a friend Mikaela was. At that point i was really stressed. before we just went to had a seat i didn't get to sit because she said she bags next to Mikaela and that was the only seat left. In R.E our teacher said the more round sometimes the more attractive and i thought he said round face so i pointed at Ramey. At that point everyone thought that saying that was really offencive but i wasn't taking up much of what the teacher said. At lunch all the food was sold and i didnt get to buy anything to eat. when i got to my dads factory i chucked down all the snacks my brother bought. i was really starving. 

And thats my story.

Angry from yesterday.

Yesterday i was really angry. At art we did shoes and i was up to using modrock. i couldnt be bothered to get water so i asked if i could share with her. she made excuses so at the end i didnt get to share with her. when we had another period of art, Mikaela (the bitch i was talking about earlier on my blog) asked if she could share the bucket of water with Ramey. Sadly she said yes. i was really angry because i knew she hadn't treated me like a friend anymore.

Ramey.

Ramey is a girl i met when she came to my school. we went along very well but when we went to camp she started playing with other people. i was a bit angry but when we got back we were still in a fight. when it got to the end of the term i really wanted an apology but she hadn't gave me one so i chose not to lose a friend and said sorry. i did regret a bit because she doesnt egactly treat me like a normal friend anymore and i also didn't get my apology.

Me and my family

In my family, I have 2 older brothers and obviously a mum and a dad. i have 11 fish at my dads factory. I like to jonas brothers and if i had to choose it would be Joe but only when his hair is spiked up not wavy or else i'll have to go with nick. i like to hang with friends and use the computer and talk to friends, listen to music and go on my blog to write whats happened how things had happened and what i've never dared to tell anyone.

not long till its night of notables at school. our topic is ancient china and we have to dress up as something very chinesy. i chose to wear a dress looking similar to this but i dont have shoes. that really worries me.

My teddy bear ; Ally

I have the exact bear from build a bear in Chadstone. its cute and fluffy and i can dress it up but sometimes i prefer not to because it looks cute plain. The day i went there was with Ellie. She got a bunny called fluffy. I called mine Ally. LOL! we both got Christmas suits for them because it was November when we went to build a bear. I'm getting older and I'm still playing with toys. My mum thinks I'm too old for toys but my brothers girlfriend still like toys. Ally is one of my favorite bears out of all. I'm sure there's still heaps of cute bears outside waiting for me to buy them!

The Computer

I don't do much when I'm bored. I mainly use the computer to watch movies, play games and chat to friends. sometimes its awesome using the computer.

not long ago our teacher told use to bring in a mask or face thats represents yourself. i chose very expressive ones that are happy. not exactly happy with everything but when I'm with friends and
being myself around other people.

Looolliiesss!!!!!!!

I'm a fan of lollies. they make me sweet, happy and they always taste good and never let me down .LOL!. there are many types of lollies. the only ones i don't like is the cherry medicine flavored ones. there awful! very interesting some people would actually like it though....I can eat heaps of lollies and not get over them. (wait..maybe I would). I get sick if i eat too much "sweeeeeet" stuff. It's a good thing my mouth doesn't take up too much sweet stuff although i've got a small stomach i'm sure theres bigger ones that me.

Demi Lovato

I think Demi Lovato has the talent to sing. some others don't. She is pretty but sometimes her fringe annoys me. I kinda like her songs. The only song i don't like would probably be "This is me" in camp rock. its a bit doggy.

MSN

i luv using MSN. It's easy to communicate with friends but sometimes there not always on. I like to use my time on MSN so i don't get bored but sometimes i do get bored cause we both don't talk much. Keeley and I had done something new and it keeps me typing not boring. we ask each other random questions one by one. It's actually quiet fun. Sometimes theres questions you've never thought about but when they ask you get a chance to think about the question.

I LUV MY COMPUTER CAUSE MY FRIENDS LIVE IN IT (thats what it says on my MSN display picture and it's kinda half true. LOL!!)

Mikaela W.

I hate mikaela. She goes to my school and my friends and I hate her. I'm not quiet sure why but she loves to pull friendships away. Very weird. She's a bitch to people she doesnt like. weirdly, she hates people for no reason. Not long ago Ellie and Lizzy were best friends and i knew thew would never come apart. But i was wrong. now Mikaela and lizzy are best friends, she doesnt give a shit about us. I Hate both because they dont seem to care. all they do is leave us behind and walk away.

Just friends.

i've only had 1 friend that i've been with for more than a year; Keeley. She's always there for me and it feels great to be with her.

Best Friends (BFFL!!)

It's so good to be with friends. They can always give you confidence and happiness. They can always make you feel good and it feels like theres always someone there to help you. To tell you the truth, i've never had a proper friendship. they dont last long. the longest was a year. i love hangin' out with my friends. that the time when i can be myself. when i have freedom and have a lot of joy and happiness. they care and treat me like im the one. I'm glad for this year I'm having a great friendship with Ellie. We've been besties for a year and i hope we can keep it up.

Bored

I can get bored very easily. My parents are no fun and my brothers are much older than me so they dont like to play with me thinking that i cant watch M movies and do "adult" things and because im a girl thinking that i would prefer other stuff. Bored isn't good. I hate it. It's the worst thing that could ever happen. I can get bored of things very easily. I like to hang out with friends but i hate it when there busy and i dont get to hang out with em'. sometimes i get caught up with too much friends my mum would get angry. thats what i dont like. they always say you go to too many friends houses. its time to stop. well i never want to. i just want to have the best time of my life.

Icing cupcakes

Yesterday I made cupcakes. my mum doesn't like icing cakes or cupcakes so I chose to ice 2. My brother, Lachlan ate one of my iced cupcakes. I was disappointed but there was quiet a lot of icing so i haven't ate a cupcake with icing on it yet. Today, i iced more cupcakes (that's what I do when
I'm bored). I iced 3 cupcakes. One had a blue flower including stem with leaves at the bottom. next was a yellow cream background with dots of different colors and my last cupcake had the left over icing. I had 3 colors left; dark green, light green and red. I made round flat circles and stuck em' on the cupcake cause i didn't feel like icing them anymore after getting food dye all over my hands and the table.

Time

its 9am in the morning and im really not up to things. I'm bored, tired and feeling different today. i hope it changes soon...

Puppies

dont you just like puppies? just how cute they are and they could be so playful. when they put cute faces at you and you just want to love it and spoil it to death. thats what i want to do but if i only had a puppy. my parents wont let me just because they dont like pets. that what i dont like about my parents.

chocolate

I love chocolate. people say it makes you happy. i think it makes you nothing but sweet. its something everyone would love. except for some people (just like my friend keeley). i cant stop resisting chocolate when i see it. unless its bad quality and tastes really bad.

i've always wished of having a puppy. If not, maybe a hamster or guinea pig but all i got was plain old fish.